| The REAL Snakes on a Plane |
[Aug. 16th, 2006|06:23 am] |
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I am leaving for London in less than 2 weeks and I am absolutely terrified. For a number of reasons. First off, I will miss my family and friends, and Matt especially him. I want our relationship to make it. I hope everyday that it will and I have faith. Life just won't be the same without seeing him everyday... but in all things, life goes on and I will have to make every day in London count. I'm so excited to see new things, however this whole thwarted terrorist plot and the situation in the Middle East is making me more scared than I've been in a long time. And I know that is exactly what the terrorists aim to do: scare me and make me doubt my safety, and they win in that regard, I am terrified. I don't want to live in fear each time I travel. I'm tired, as I'm sure many Americans are, not to mention our troops who are probably more tired than any other group. I just want to study abroad. This shouldn't be so nerve wracking. I should be able to live in a society with freedom from fear. It makes me hate them. It makes me want to terrorize them and blow up their civilians and murder them brutally. But then I'd become what I can't stand. I don't think terrorism will ever go away, but I at least wish it were contained enough so that people who just wish to live their lives in peace would be given a fair chance. I will not be made to feel like I must die at their hands simply because I'm an American. I will not have my safety be breaching simply because they believe my consumerism is a tenet of evil. I want to be able to understand their hatred, how it seems just etched into their weary faces and burned into their dark flashing eyes. I want to be able to understand and then ask them why? Why? The most terrifying part about their ideology is that death does not scare them. They wish for it in hopes of attaining riches and pleasures in the afterlife. But where specifically in their ideology does it condone killing innocents, people who cannot be held responsible for what current and former politicians have done to affect their countries and make them so hateful? I want to know, in what way possible is their ideology even remotely logical, or is it just such blind hatred that it has reached an unprecedented form of jealousy? I call a new type of Jihad upon them. Strange that I must use the hateful vocabulary of a group I despise to describe my loathing towards their cowardess. They ARE cowards. Any honorable fighter will give his opponent a fair chance at fighting back, but they are snakes about it and target even children. Cowards, all of them. I hope they are wiped off the face of the Earth. |
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| And a Great Birthday it Was... |
[Sep. 3rd, 2005|04:22 pm] |
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My 21st birthday was yesterday and I started celebrating in anticipation of it at 11:57 pm on September 1st. At this time precisely, I was in ABC Liquors in Tallahassee perusing the liquor and wine shelves for what would be the best statement to make with my first alcoholic purchase. Did I want to be the girly girl who wussed out and bought bitch drinks? Should I be the mediocre tight-wad who bought a cheap case of nasty tasting beer? Or did I have the gall to buy a Fifth of Vodka... the hard stuff that would put me in a league of legally shitfaced champions? Oh yes... I opted for the Vodka and some Sour Apple Pucker to make myself some delectable Appletinis. So I brought my items up to the counter at exactly 11:58 pm and the cashier asked to see some identification. I presented my driver's license with a beaming smile on my face and declared, "It's my 21st birthday, today!" Then, the cashier looked at me sarcastically and said it's not your birthday for another 2 minutes. I thoughgt he was joking and then he told me as part of the store's "Cover Your Own Ass" policy, the date on the receipt from the register had to match the date of my birthday for me to make my purchase. The store was going to close at midnight, so I thought I had been defeated, when the cashier smiled (apparently abandonning his previously sarcastic demeanor) and told me that he would make me wait the extra 2 minutes and then would ring up my items. I found this hilarious, having to wait the extra couple of minutes on a technicality, however I obliged and with good spirits. The cashier even counted down the last ten seconds to midnight (officially my birth date) and then proceeded to ring up my items.
When I got home, my roomie Meredith, our friend Maira, DJ and I all made smores on our back porch over candles...and they were amazing. I went to bed and woke up with a hangover because Meredith made the Appletinis way too strong. When I woke up, I had a big package from my parents who got me a very nice blender to make smoothies, daquaris and margaritas with and some clothes and money. Later that evening, Meredith made me my favorite dinner (consisting of noodles, gravy, ground beef and mushrooms) almost exactly how my mother had made it and then Matt, myself, our friend Dave and our other friend Doug (who also just turned 21) went out to a bar called Bullwinkle's that had a Friday night special of $10 for all you can drink top shelf liquor. I had a fruity mango drink, a rum and coke, vodka and cranberry, 2 Sex on the Beach shots, a Tequila Sunrise, and a shot of Tequila (which was horrible) all in under 2 hours. Doug and I were both presented at the door with stickers indicating we were celebrating our birthdays. Many people came up to us and wished us a happy birthday. Doug and I (looking a little similar in face structure and eye color) thought it would be hilarious if we pretended to be fraternal twins. It worked out to his advantage because when introduced to some of the girls Doug was hitting on that night, I proceeded to boost his image by telling them what a good older brother by 2 minutes he was. We all found it hilarious because people actually bought it. Later, I became sufficiently tipsy and we took the Safe Bus back to Matt and DJ's apartment where Matt gave me a present consisting of unwrapping several large boxes just to get to a smaller one which contained the complete 3rd season of the Gilmore Girls on DVD and he made me a mixed CD of all the significant songs that we've either listened to or sang along with in our relationship.....and tonight we're having ANOTHER party (which will give me a chance to use my blender and my legally purchased Vodka). All in all it was a very successful birthday and I am very happy to have such a great family and caring friends. |
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| get out of my head!!! |
[Aug. 1st, 2005|10:42 pm] |
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Holy shit... I need to stop having weird, freaky dreams that I can't seem to control. My subconscious is whacked. I think I prefer the stability of reality. |
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| Looks like I got me a full month of fun!!! |
[Jul. 31st, 2005|01:28 pm] |
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I feel a little weird...as though I've grown up or something. I don't feel like a little girl anymore. It's strange, I keep thinking about him and it's like I get that fluttery infatuated feeling in my heart that I used to when we first started going out...am I in love? I don't know. I love him though, very much.
In other news, I had my bottom two wisdom teeth taken out and it hurts like a bitch. I couldn't eat anything besides pudding which made me sick and I threw up at least 5 times. I'm looking rather pale and a lot thinner as a result.
Next week is the last week of camp. My group is doing a little production of STOMP with pots, pans, shakers, and a huge water jug. It's gonna be awesome. Going to Vans Warped Tour on the 6th with Matt, DJ and a bunch of people from work. That day is Mae's birthday and my parents are out of town so I'm gonna party it up. I leave for Buffalo on the 10th and get back the 17th. Then it's off to Tallahassee on the 19th to move into my new apartment with my awesome roomie Meredith! I'm so excited!!! Then I have a week before school starts when I'll practice my audition monologues for the theatre productions, then we'll probably all take turns getting smashed at everybody's apartment. DJ, Matt and Erick's apartment is just down the road...very convenient. Then the next week is the first week of school topped off by my 21st BIRTHDAY!!!!
WOOOOOOOOOOOOO HOOOOOOOOOOOOO :-) |
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| "I Get By With a Little Help From My Friends" |
[May. 1st, 2005|01:11 am] |
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| |  nostalgic | ] |
I got a little teary yesterday when Dad came up to Tallahassee to help me pack. Matt rode down with PJ, and I'm very happy that we will be able to spend so much time together over the summer. We've been dating for almost 8 months now...he's so good, so amazing, thank God he's in my life...he keeps me grounded. I'm gonna miss all the good times I had this past year. Having DJ there was amazing in the beginning, but I didn't know I would make friends with my whole floor and come to love and be loved for the first time. Matt, DJ, Meredith, Wiebe, Jenkins, Doug, Dave, Evan, Bill, and Jeff have each in their own special way made my college life better this year. I haven't felt this kind of tight-knit friendship, this kind of urban family mood, since high school. I'm so glad to have it again. They ARE my extended family. I have so many memories, good and bad, that I would not trade for the world. God heard me and answered my prayers for stability and acceptance. Thank you, thank you, I love all of my friends... and I cried inside when I had to leave most of them for the summer. |
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| (no subject) |
[Mar. 4th, 2005|02:07 pm] |
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I will never forget this day as long as I live. wow. |
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| Fun Times to Ensue in Orlando |
[Jan. 12th, 2005|01:12 pm] |
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| |  calm | ] |
It's such a pretty day outside and the weather is nice. I like it when we have a breeze. This morning I rode my bike in such thick fog I couldn't see 15 feet in front of me. It was great. I'm very content today, but very sympathetic toward's my sister's current troubles. I seriously wanna kick this stupid-ass Brit in the nuts for messing with her head...nobody fucks with a Peterson girl.
In other, happier news, I will be going to Orlando this weekend with Matt and our friends Amy, Kristen and Matt's roomie Doug. Very excited about being Magic Kingdom bound. I also have a check from the YMCA coming my way this week. Things are stable...just the way I like them. But I have Theatre classes now to infiltrate me with my daily dose of eccentric drama.
But, oh serenity, I have found you at last. |
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| Verisimilitude: "The Appearance of Truth" |
[Jan. 7th, 2005|01:31 pm] |
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| | Popular - Wicked | ] |
I'm a Theatre Major!! And it rocks :-) I have a Scene Tech Lab from 2-5 on Thursdays and I'm so excited about it because we will actually be constructing sets for the mainstage shows Evita and Romeo and Juliet. I've never built anything before and I've never really done carpentry stuff with tools but it sounds amazing. In other news, Meredith, Maira and I might be living in Colony Club next year. It will be so nice to have my own room and Meredith is quite possibly the best college roomie I ever could have asked for. She's so chill and she gives me and Matt our alone time (speaking of which, I've broken my previous 2 month relationship curse with this relationship which is up to 4 months now). DJ came over the other day and fixed my computer. Very convenient that I have a technologically advanced friend.
Also, for spring break, many of the 2 East residents and myself might go camping in Panama City Beach for 3 or 4 days and then we'll get a cheap hotel. It'll be a real Spring Break experience and I can't wait to get extremely intoxicated. Life is good. I have no complaints. In less than an hour I have my acting performance class in which we are assigned to write a personal monologue for next Friday. Our professor told us it should be something related to our lives like maybe something that we've wanted to say to someone that's had an impact on us and were too afraid to say. Not sure what I'm going to write it on yet... maybe my parents or past ex-boyfriends or something. I'll figure it out. I'm also not sure if I want it to be profoundly dramatic or comedic or a bit of both. I'll be sure to post it when I'm done. Yes, life is good, very good indeed. |
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| God Bless Us, Everyone |
[Dec. 25th, 2004|10:38 pm] |
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Christmas was great and DJ's birthday celebration at Buca Di Beppo's was tons of fun. I bought him the movie Hero on DVD because we both saw it together in Tally and he seemed to like it especially. After the restaurant we went back and Matt (O'Brien) and DJ practically forced me to watch Boondock Saints (which wasn't that bad except for the fact that Willem Dafoe is totally creepy in drag). Italian food was great and we all sang Happy Birthday and I think DJ was really happy with the way it turned out.
Gram's here and I sang a solo for two Christmas Eve masses at Saint Jude. The firs mass I sang alright, but my voice was shaky because I was nervous. The Morgamans were there so I felt the need to show off my voice in a way that would make Mr. Morgaman wonder why I was never cast as a lead in the musicals. The second mass was fantastic because just as I finished singing I saw Matt walking up to me with a huge smile on his face and a bouquet of roses. I had told him that I would be singing but he told me he had a family thing to do. I was so surprised and happy that I cried and hugged and kissed him right there in the church. He told me that he walked in during the applause after my song and he had me give him a private encore in the Church parking lot.
Then I went to a Christmas party for friends of our family and went to midnight mass with Matt at his old church, St. Ambrose. It was a beautiful church and a beautiful mass. Matt then gave me presents; Special Edition Dogma DVD, Special Edition Jay and Silent Bob Strike Back and a huge pad of Word Searches. He's so great and Christmas was great... I got The Birdcage on DVD, the Wicked soundtrack, Special Edition Forrest Gump DVD, Naked by David Sedaris, clothes and a crapload of money.
On Monday I will be working as a counselor at the YMCA for their winter camp until Thursday. Then it's New Year's Eve in which I will probably be doing something with DJ and maybe Matt too. I can't wait for 2005. It's going to be amazing. |
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| Celebration and Old Friends |
[Dec. 20th, 2004|02:01 am] |
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HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY, DJ!!!
So DJ is 20 years old and we're still good friends (actually we've become even better friends ever since this past summer). Ooooh and Emmy comes home today too!
DJ and I went to see the Lemony Snicket movie yesterday and it was amazing (I'll have to read the books). While we were there, we ran into Lindsay Eagle and Kalen. We all talked of old North Broward memories and had a great time. I'm glad to see that they're both adjusting well to college. Seeing both of them again made me happy because it made me feel like I was right back in high school. I loved those memories we had.
It's going to be an amazing Christmas...I can hardly wait :-) |
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